Appreciating the people around us

It's really amazing how time can really past so fast and guess what we are already at the 2nd last day of 2008. I could still recall the days when I needed a miracle in the lab for my dear bacteria to clone out the right and exact sequence of the DNA.. I waited for months and months, failed for more than 10 times when people just did it right for the first time. It was discouraging but thank God that everything went on time, everything went alright just before the project was due. Same exact feeling right now, with the anticipation of getting employed after so many trials... Sometimes it can really get really disheartening, but the promises of God are Yes and Amen. His promises are real, He will never leave me nor forsake me. He will watch me with His eye. Smiles. So I am still Hopeful.

Nonetheless, 2008 has been the best year yet of which the most significant period of my life are the times in SOT. It was truly the best!!

The accomplishment of 2008 (The milestones)
Jan - Finally get started with the experiments in late Jan!
March - Completed the FYP, completed Design II major project
April - Finished the final papers in NTU
April - Enrolled into SOT
May - Went for my first mission trip and got into the first car accident on Bud's car
Jun - Serve CCH in a much greater measure
July - Graduated from NTU
July - Minister to people in emotional healing
Aug - Graduated from SOT 2008!!! (Finished reading 10 books within a short span of 5mth which I never did in my life)
Aug - CG multiplication
Sep - Went through an exciting Birthday and an unforgettable September with a series of events...
Sep - First Traffic Offence!
Oct - Help out with CCH with operations
Oct - Serve as counselor ic
Nov - ASIA CONFERENCE!
Dec - XMAS!

I am thankful to God for my brother, for the transformation in his life. Something changed ever since I went to SOT. Cool isn't it? Readers, what are you waiting for? Get yourself enrolled then! He used to be a short tempered person, in the beginning of the year. Look at him now,much more patient, rising up in CG, compassionate and loving. Smiles.. hahah Great is our God.

Thankful for SOT. My life is never the same again. I started having healthy self esteem, look better, love people more, love God more, being wiser and discerning. The things that I experienced are so awesome that given a chance I would still go for SOT man!! I found myself good friends like Jing, Qiu Ping, Yvonne, Chai Ying, Perez, Peter, Zong Xing, Kee Wei, Bernard, Chloe, Bernice, Xin Yan, Wan Xiu, Lawrence, Jodie, Pranee, Juliana, Yun Rui so on and so forth. Not forgeting the stronger friendships that I really treasured with Jing, Jessica, Lilian and Hui Mei. I really missed those days. Heaven on earth. I missed the mission trips, the morning prayer, the morning going to school together, the chionging of assignments, everything. My goal came to past. SOT 2008 is the goal fulfilled. In 2008 I wrote in my goal card, I want to know a make another good friend, and I have found her, Jing. smiles. I think I got more than 1.

Another goal I wrote was to know the people in LYL more. ANd it came to past!! Hahah get to know Felix, Cassandra, Esther, Elizabeth, JiaSheng, Elaine, Jun Yu, Bennie, Jasmine, Melissa......loads loads more. I am simply blessed. I shall begin to write more things on the new yr resolution again!!! hahha

2009 shall be the year I get attached. But before that I want to put career first. BF first, CG, then followed by relationship. Meanwhile, I will pray and believe ba. smiles.
My goal for the CG this year is to raise up more CoGLs, multiply the CoG and multiply the CG. I want to be much closer to every single member than ever before. My goal is to bring my Mum to church. Think it will happen this year.

Lilian is right. The 2 major milestones are SOT and NTU schooling. Design II and FYP were the battles I fought this year. It was a trying yet victorious year. It was really challenging doing the DESIGN II and FYP with no very easy people. It was really tormenting at times. Yet I thank God for friends like HUi Qing, Ya Xuan, Lilian, Cindy, Xue Ping, Wang Liang, Huang Lei and Hong Fang.

Between August to November were the times I learnt how to handle my personal issues and to lean on God. I think I have fought a good fight... hahah I had great friends like Yi Lun, Zhenn, Hui Mei, Lilian, Jing, Yong Siang, Jia Jia, Zhi Peng, Caleb, Calvin who were there as counsel and comfort. Through that I learnt to be stronger, wiser.. I really do.

The year is going to end tml! I am excited with the new year ahead. Greater things are yet to come.

2009 Goals.
1. Love God more and to finish the rest of the Bible not read
2. Get Baptized
3. Bring and integrate 3 personal friends
4. Shed fats!!!
5. Run Stand Chart in Nov (10K)
6. Learn to dance
7. Get a Job in the beginning of Jan
8. Save up and bless my parents every month
9. Read 10 books in the year 2009
10. Have much better complexion!
11. Multiply the CG raise up CoGLs
12. Get attached.

An unusual sight

That Sat I was given the chance to help out with CCH CHristmas Production. I had an unusual encounter. I was asked to take care of a youth who has lost his sight and his name is Benjamin. Benjamin is 14 years old and he has also lost his sense of hearing therefore he is dependent on the hearing aids.

During worship, the moment he sang. I couldn't help but cried. His love for God is pure and sincere. With all of his heart, he sang, loud and clear. The presence of God lingered in his presence. Though he didn't have all his senses working, but he has a pure heart. Blessed are those who are pure in heart, for they shall see God.

Benjamin looks contented with whatever he has. It sets me thinking... There are a lot of wants and desires, demands and questions we have towards God. When do we truly come with the aim of just seeking God... Nothing else.. smiles.

Its Lilian's day!!

On the 20 DEC 2008, PRINCESS LILIAN had her 23rd Birthday Party with Sze, Chris & Estelle. The ladies night at NewYork NewYork!! Now waiting for Chris to upload all the pictures. This lilian loves to confuse her friends by putting all different birth dates on facebook and friendster and she claims that those who are closer to her will know. The irony is that till today I am still confuse. Pardon me my dear friend.. hehehe.

She made a wish that day and I felt that its good to display it here! She wants to get a**ach** in 2009!!! I can't help but to say, where can you find such a sweet and nice gal in Singapore? Makes breakfast for me. Encourages me. She is always up to new and creative ideas that will spark off energy in you. She is just a person with amazing capacity to love and her patience level is high man.... So.. praying for you!! Hehehehe...

On wednesday, we went out to shop. I manage to convince her to put on a nice little coat dress in Tangs and till now she is in love with it but yet to buy it. While waiting for the lovely princess to try out all the dresses, hahaha, I sat down right outside the changing room. And started self-shooting. LOLs. Nice right.

Happy Birthday my dearest friend. I LOVE YOU

Monday to Friday

Its been really a fruitful week!
Monday I went for the tuition which is $40/hr! However it lasted only for 2 lessons, nonetheless I am thankful because I knew greater things are yet to come, or rather greater things are coming. There should be a reason. I can sense something coming.... hahhah (Shall keep u guys in suspense!) Once again I participated in painting the house for a while. I went to Ling's house after that to recede the place for myHope. It is a neat and cozy environment. I also get to meet her interesting sisters Li Jun, Si Yin and her mum. I felt the need to really pray for them, for her mum's job. I really felt it. =) I just love to spend time with them.

Tuesday...
Feeling really gan cheong about the myHope meeting which is to be carried out on Wednesday, I was involved in the planning, the execution and basically holding the entire meeting. No doubt having some experience with it in SOT to preach in a setting of 20 people, I stil felt the butterflies in my stomach flying here. How to lead worship? How to give altar call? How? Well if I have not known the reason for all that I am doing, I would have given out.
At night, attended the combine meeting at JW. Pastor was sharing with us what God had spoken to him and we were all praying. It really feels good to be in the house of God praying. smiles..

Wednesday
SUN IS BACK!!! After so long, she is finally back.
MyHope
Ling came to my house. I woke up early to pray, to prepare everything...Then we left off for her house. The eunos friends didn't turn up in the end. BUT we met a lot of new friends like Benjamin, Shawn, Hua Jun and Lixing. We played Basketball after that and even celebrated for Ben's birthday. He invited us to his party the next day!! I missed Basketball, the running, the shooting, the perspiring, the loosing of fats. Ben loves Jay Chou to bits, he even made a comparison photo between him and jay. LOL. That's the classic.
I am really thankful for friends like Jo, Ling, Hocksoon and Willy, who made all these possible. I think it wouldn't have happened have they not turned up. Hey guys, I really really appreciated your great help!!

Thursday
We went for Ben's party! Ling, me and Lixing. I got to know the SHE and Wang Ren Fu look alike. Anyway he really looked like Ren Fu Miniature. SHE-->Eleanor, Rion and Zen. Talking to young people really makes me feel younger! hahah.
At night we went to HockSoon's house for another myHope and I have the opportunity to lead another meeting. I really want to give credits to Jo for being such an awesome guitarist, insisting on playing even though her fingers are with blisters. Awesome!! Thank Ling for taking the nuggets, bringing Lixing home, waiting for MeiLing and cabbing down. I seriously appreciate everything you have done, gal. Thank you Bel for bringing the DVD player. Thanks for availing your help, if not for you, I guess we don't even have things to watch. lol..HockSoon thanks fro the sacrifices you have made by forgoing your movie with your friends.

Friday
Serve in CCH!=) Picked up the lovely kids Sherlyn, AShlyn and also Dawson. These children are really very interesting. Love them to bits. Went for myHope, the final one, at Saren's house, hosted by Jo. It was awesome. I felt the presence of God. I really enjoyed all the fun man... for more details you can refer to www.n282.blogspot.com. I received a call to meet Jose regarding a Job interview. I shall update you guys if there is good news. I went out to meet her all the way until 12am at night. It was a great fellowship. Chatted with Zhenn all the way until 1.30am with her screaming at the background because of the scary beesssss!! Lol. She is just so cute man. I love talking to Zhen, she always make me feel edified.

One of the sweetest sister..

The lovely jo's blessing... =)

Jo, someone always full of love. God always use her to speak to me about enlarging my capacity to love, to bless. She is such a detailed person. So proud of her.. Thank you sis for all the love and blessings you have been showering me. I just love fellowshipping with you.

My life, Your Song

WHOSE HANDS ARE THESE
HOLDING MY TRAPEZE
WHEN I FLY
YOU CARRY ME
WHOSE EYES ARE THESE
WATCHING OVER ME
EYES OF LOVE
THAT SET ME FREE


UNAFRAID
WHAT'S AHEAD
YOU ARE ALWAYS THERE BEFORE
MY WHOLE WORLD
YOUR DESIGN
YOU ARE ALWAYS THERE
JUST RIGHT BEHIND


MY LIFE IS YOUR SONG
TO YOU MY HEART BELONGS
LET ALL EARTHLY CROWNS
FADE IN THE SHADOW OF THE CROSS
MY LIFE IS YOUR SONG
I'LL SING FOR YOU ALONE
NOTHING IN THIS WORLD
CAN TAKE ME AWAY FROM YOU
OUR LOVE GOES ON AND ON


WHOSE ARMS ARE THESE
SHELTER ME FROM HARM
IN THE STORM
YOU ARE MY CALM
WHOSE VOICE I HEAR
WHISPER IN MY EAR
WHEN I'M LOST
YOU'RE ALWAYS NEAR


IN ALL MY LIFE
BE GLORIFIED
WITH CHRIST IN ME
NO LONGER I
SO TAKE MY ALL
CONSUMING FIRE
YOUR LIGHT IN ME
I'LL LET IT SHINE

When I was listening to the lyrics of this song, tears went down. My life is Your song...to you my heart belongs. Let all earthly crowns fade in the shadow of the cross.

I need You God..

nothing can take me away from You

Random !!!

Hahhaa I am supposed to paint the last side of the wall... and here I am blogging. Tsk tsk tsk.. Shsssh Daddy has gone out to get the paint, so for the time being I can allow myself the last few minutes to put up the photos!!! =)

Smiles

Yes! I was awaken by the still small voice and its time to go to play for Jing's CG. What an honour to be able to help. Hahah..what's the song? Elevate Your name and the God I know. Interesting attempt to play the new praise song because I am not very familiarized with 16 chords. I didn't take a lot of time to practise because I reach home quite late yesterday. Just want to thank God, i know this is not a coincidence. It's quite funny why God always like to choose the base things of the world to put to shame those things that are mighty.

As I was on my way to Jing's CG, something just thugs at my heart. I want to love God more. Really..

I need to His love to fill my love tank. Patience, love. I need to love more. Love love love. Without Love I am nothing. God is love..

Looking at this past one year, its really the best year so far.

The Good thursday

Just went for an interview with GSK, a very established pharmaceutical company this morning at 930am. And I met Sheng Min there. We applied for the same position! =) The interview was quite alright but there was one question I thought I didn't answer very well.. hahaha Keeping my finger cross. Smiles, thank God for this open door!

I went to South East CDC after that to get myself registered with the recruit consultancy. I met a friendly/ overfriendly consultant. Hmmm... Oh well, nvm.. hahaha. I shall be smarter bext time. Weird people do exist.
Did you manage to get the Free Star Bucks? Hahah I just love the happy and positive atmosphere they had at the StarBucks Coffee place. Everybody carried such great attitude! =) But don't just go for the freebies. Christmas is more than just receiving, it is giving. I love the way they have a day off just to do charitable deeds like this... Hope, one day, I too, able to set up a school for the poor. That's my dream. The other dream is to open a chocolate factory.. hahhaha.. lilian remembers all my crap..

The highlight of the day is able to meet two of my very good friends: Zhen & Ling. Thank God for such a great fellowship. We had alot alot alot alot alot alot of FUN!! hahhahaha Well, next time must arrange an earlier outing with the lovely N282 peeps. Thank God for zhen & ling. They just ended my day well. Thank you Zhen for the treats.. Thank you Ling, just love your contagious laughter.. Stupid, keep making me gave out the cards, win or looose. I got nothing to say but you two are in cahoots... tsk tsk tsk

The 3 of us
Christmas festival Special...SO NICE! I LOVE CHRISTMAS! Ling's drink! Shall we take pictures at Orchard together. Hmm.. this year's lightings quite nice. There are a lot of sweets.

My favorite Matcha (Middle) don't know why Zhen don't like. Even though the color don't look too apealing!! I love you Matcha. Anyway the Matcha Icecream at AZU ZABO is super nice!!

TCC!

My laoda, Zhenn..

Walking step by step with faith

By Cassie's request... Here is the blog.. Time to be self-centered.

Now I am trusting God for a job.
Initial days of the week right after AC, was just liked what Pst Tan said, we were brought back to the world, the reality. Faith dipped upon constant waiting for the calls for interview yet no one really did ring me up. Even when I watched the Qian Xian Zui Zhong, they were talking about jobs, recession and hopelessness. I was pretty much discouraged and weighed down by all these worries.. Especially so when almost a hundred resume had been sent out... AND I am still here...unemployed.

Just last monday, I was being lectured by my Dad for not staying at home enough for 3 hrs late into the night. I guess that was the escalation of the unhappiness for the late night home-coming and the early disappearance in AC. Well, I am not perfect either, but I am thankful that at least we communicated like what Buddy Hui Qiong said. I never regret going AC, it changed my life. Of course, I still love Daddy. And I love to spend time with my family. Love them... Don't get me wrong, Family comes before ministry. =)

My mum hadn't recovered, she wasn't feeling too well either. Initially we thought it was dengue fever with the fever and cold syndrome switching back and forth, and the body aching unceasingly. Later we were told that if the report was tested positive, she would be admitted straight into hospital. I prayed and thank God it wasn't dengue. Thank You Lord. So 2 weeks past, Mum is still not feeling well. Once again, she visited a doctor. It was diagnosed that she might have a blood virus. Today, Dad brought her to GH for a more thorough check. It's gonna be alright. Her movement is a little restricted because her legs are a little swollen. It's recovering. =) The change of blood will be rather slow, so I guess this virus will take a while. I am still believing for healing..

I thank God that each time when I started to pray, I felt much much better. In all these times, the person who is with me, in thoughts, in feelings, in everything is none other than God. Not discrediting the encouragement and prayers of the loved ones, but to emphasize that sometimes when we feel down, we tend to look for the hope, support from everywhere else but God... The truth is no one, no human can give you the satisfaction, the contentment, and the peace like He does. I am not an orphan, Jesus says He will not leave me as orphan. He is with me, I am not alone, not forsaken. He loves to provide and He knows my need. He will not be too early, not too late, right on time.

Just now, I was reading a book by Pst Cho. He says the cure to anxiety is prayer. Prayer gets to the cause of the anxiety.
Phil 4:6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

Isa 43:18Do not [earnestly] remember the former things; neither consider the things of old.
19Behold, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs forth; do you not perceive and know it and will you not give heed to it? I will even make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.

Matt 6:33 But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

Rom 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him,[a] who[b] have been called according to his purpose.

Phil 4:19 And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.

SO I started to visualize myself working in giving presentation. Pst Bob says must create a catch screen to see what God is saying. So i started to confess... =) Smiles. Thank you Lord.

Other than the area of career, is the area of relationship. For that, I shall trust God. Smiles. Setting apart for Him, and eventually the right one will come along when the time is right. Smiles. Keep thinking about what had already happened, holding on to the past were something that consumed alot of energy, mentally and emotionally. To the younger generation (not saying that I am old) , they would probably have chosen the easy trial approach. I had a great fellowship with Zhen on Sat.. I love that fellowship. She said something very very true. She said, I don't have to find, what I need to do is to love God, look good. Thats settle all. Some friendships are divine, you feel lifted up when you spend time with that person. =) I guess I have found them. Thank you Zhen.

Thank God for Hui Fen. Really appreciate all that you have done for me. More than words man.. Hugss. Thank you for always helping me to the max u know how.

Asia Conference

Its been a good 23 days since I last blog. Smiles. Its a longg time. Updates: I left Singtel on the 18 Nov2008. Thank you buddy for a nice dinner at Orchard =) Love Ya!!

On the 19 Nov2008 we had our long awaited Asia Conference.
Of course, it exceeded my expectation of what a good conference is all about.
The day started with the multitudes of people crowding at Expo Hall 3,7,8,9,10. I didn't know Singapore had so many people...

Day1:

Electives:
Effective Evangelism by Pst Seow How & Pst Abraham
Coping with Depression by Dr Ang
Day2:
Effecting Counseling by Pst Mike Connell
Having a healthy Self Esteem by Pst Tan
All the sessions were fantastic.
I love Pst Phil's msges.

On the Day 1 night, I met TinFang. I missed her. She is from Taiwan. We did visitation for CCH for a month. There was a period of time after SOT when I was quite down, but the moment I remembered what she said, it just totally encouraged me.

One of the highlights of Asia Conference is the queueing up for 3hours or even 4hours!=) Smelling each other's perspiration. Special thanks to Ling, Si Yi, Bel, Stan, HockSoon for always being there to stick through thick and thin man.. Of course not forgeting our nobel lighting heroine, Pamela, who sacrificed her time to work for all 10 sessions. Give it up for the unsung hero!! Carrisa the sweet and polite usher... Yeah! Not forgeting the best leader of the year Ee Zhen Ying, who was there with us in the spirit all the time, though she had to work, yet she keep on encouraging us, praying for us.

Day3:

Something that meant a lot to me is the prophesy given to my brother, AH Lu, on the 3rd day of the conference. Significant because its a prayer coming to pass... Something that really encourages me too. It was Pastor Phil who prophesied over me in 2005. I remember I made a prayer to God, that whatever I have, let Ah Lu have the double portion. And interestingly, it really did happen. Sin't that amazing.

Pastor Phil said that he will rise up. The younger generation like him will start to do great things for the Lord, preach the gospel, cast out demons, bring the gospel to Asia. Wei Jian, I am so so proud of you. http://www.chc.org.sg/citynews/?p=5511

Day 4:
One of the most amazing person I have met is weekiat. He woke up early for all the different sessions, waited for me, queued with me, called us all up.. And he is one super caring guy man... He forbade me to eat chilli.. Young as he may be, he can got the potential to be a Father.. muahaha... Thank you weekiat.

Day5:

My Beloved Joanna. 26 Nov 2008 is the BIG BIRTHDAY for this sweet princess here. Just wanna say that I really appreciate you for every single thing you have done for all of us. You may have heard it a thousand times, but I will say it a thousand and one thing that I love you. Thanks Jo!!

Day6:


Our beloved pastors are ordained namely: Reverend Zhuang, Reverend Yong Kiang, Reverend Ming, Reverend Tan Seow How, Reverend Wayne Chang, Reverend Kelvin Loo, Pastor Bobby, Pastor Joseph, Pastor Angel!! We are so so proud of you...

Restore to me the joy of Your salvation...

Thank God It’s Friday!! =) Smiles. It has been a tremendous week.
This week went through really fast, without knowing its 7 days more to Asia Conference! It’s just next week. 7 more days to the end of the fast, come guys we can do it. The last lap! I am expecting God to move. Our friends will be integrated, discipled!! CWDS & Eunos revival! CG members moving to the next level~!

The highlight of this week is actually the bible study (bs). During the bs, I was reminded of how I used to be so afraid of sharing offering messages, afraid of leading testimony. I was always lost for words. I could still recall how I blanked out even in sharing offering messages. Then I started to remember how bad I was at giving presentation in school when my peers could do it even without lifting an eye lid. To tell the truth, I never like the idea of public speaking.

In the bible study, as we were all practicing moving in the gifts of the HS, Bro Bob move in the word of wisdom. He asked if there are any of us who are afraid of public speaking. He said “You blanked out and forgot what you want to say. Today, God wants to deliver you from the fear of public speaking, right here right now. If that’s you, lift up your hands. Man… I lifted up my hand, thinking could it be me? But I thought to myself, I thought I had already overcome that fear since nowadays I am better at speaking publicly? But why do I keep recalling all these moments when Bro bob was sharing bs. So I lifted up my hands. He began to bind the devil. Man… I felt the presence of God. Bro bob said “God is moving in your life. The next time when you begin to speak, something different is going to happen. God is going to speak through you.” Wow!

After everything, I went to talk to Bro Bob. I spoke to him about my experience. He said “So that was you la!! =)”

Smiles. Thank God for discerning leaders... Wow. I am so blessed so so so blessed by the Word.

Prior bs, I was pretty much discouraged. But God is faithful even when I am faithless. He never fails.
Your Word is a lamp unto my feet, light unto my path.

Bro Bob also shared about having the power and the anointing of the Holy Spirit. We need it more than anything else. He shared with us how he used to run from school to the bus stop the moment the school bell rang and to the bus stop to board the first bus to the library. Then he will search for the book titled “The Holy Spirit” and he will spend hours reading. After which he will bookmark it and hide it underneath the shelf. He got addicted, addicted to the presence of the Holy Spirit. He used to be a very stonge Buddhist. He was so devoted that he went to temple every week, guess he was already up to be promoted to be a priest of the temple. Until one day, he was invited to a CG, the presence of God came. He didn’t know that was the presence of God. He cried and cried. When the altar call was given by Pst Kong, he responded. God gave us emotion so that we can feel Him. Holy Spirit too, has emotions. Because of emotion, he didn’t care much about the consequences. I mean after which the persecution came rolling in non stop.

I need the Holy Spirit. You need Him too. He is all that we need, all that I desire. Holy Spirit impresses silently on your heart. He hears your thought. I want to know Him more. Do you? =) When He walks in, you can sense His presence. He is likened the wind. His presence drowns out all the worries, the negative thoughts, the criticism, the discouragement because He is peace. He is love and He gives us sound mind. Thank you Lord.

Finally find the chance and the mood to blog again. Tdy is Tuesday, and I am in the officer of Singtel once again. What has been happening since 23 Oct? Hmm…
I went for a camp. I started a new temporary job, went overseas for a short trip.

Extremely impacted by what Bro Bob shared during Bible Study last week. It’s about prayer. It’s a comprehensive bible study; if we take the time to expound and study he said we can start a seminar on prayer. =)

There are 3 different ways in which we can pray: 1) Psalm 23 2) The Lord’s Prayer 3) The Tabernacle prayer. Praying and meditating through the verses really helped me to draw closer to God. Many of us have the misconception that the Spirit-world is in the 2nd heaven, that for us to get to God, we have to tarry for God to come from the heaven and then to our rooms and finally we can experience Him. That’s wrong. Bible says that God is closer to us than the air that we breathe. Between us and God is separated not by distance, but by the distractions, the worries, the negative thoughts and Satan. All we have to do is to put to captive these things that exalt itself against God. When cast all these down, God is actually right in front of us. Sometimes things just veiled our vision. Our mind has to be subjected to the Word.
There is power in the blood of Jesus; power to overcome sickness, curses and Satan. Believing, visualizing and confessing. When you believe in your heart and confess with your mouth, nothing is impossible.
I AM GOING TO GET A JOB with 2.8 & above and I AM GOING TO GET BAPTIZE THIS SATURDAY 15 NOV 2008!The Morning Prayer was awesome.
It takes discipline to pray. It really does when nobody tells you to. I shall make it happen this wed and the remaining of the week.

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The trip to Batam was truly awesome, besides the shopping I really enjoyed talking and spending time with my parents and cousins especially jiejie. We had a great time sharing.

We talked about relationships. Sometime that can really entangle us up if it’s the wrong relationship. Cal was saying that in every relationship, we always learn and grow, he is right. It’s not too long to stop something rather than to put up it for a life time I supposed. Getting attached for the sake of getting one will only gain temporal pleasure, what remains after that is the dread of maintenance since one is a taker and the other is a giver.

Well, besides the fellowship. I had a great time feasting! =p Oops, haven’t been exercising. Can I wait until Asia conference then I start exercising? (Mode of procrastination) I finally bought my black polo shirt with the number! I bought an interesting cap at $5 too. Smiles. Guess what girls? Fake lashes are going for less than 50cents in Indo. Shoes are fairly cheap ($20 odd).

Thank God for this Blessing!! Thank God for the entire trip. Thank God for my mum and my dad especially. They are truly my blessing. I must be thankful once again.

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Job Search
Been looking, sending resume as many as I know how, I will leave the rest to God.
I need Your grace, not just dependent on certs and qualifications.
Yesterday I just went for an interesting interview at EPchem International. I thought I went to the wrong company. What really caused me to be startled was the huge Chinese statue standing at the door. The door was those ancient Chinese door you would have seen in those Chinese drama. The name of the company was also written in Chinese. I almost fainted. I went in, the PC were huge, those you would find extinct. =p No flat screen at all, those rounded back ones. LOLs. I prayed, I don’t want to work there man. The walls were painted in dull grey, together with the rainy weather, looks like everybody is quite dead. I proceeded to the 4th floor for the real interview. The HR manager looked very tired. The amount she offered is way too low.

Hmm.. I guess I can trust God for better ones. God, I really need Your grace now!! Well, still thankful at least I have an interview for me to learn something new rather than staying in the office. Smiles.

I went for another interview with PeopleSearch, a consultancy firm. A lady by the name of Jessica suggested being a recruitment consultant to me. I guess the remuneration and the commission seems attractive, just the jobs prospect. It wouldn’t be something I want to take up life long.

Waiting for more to come! I just need the ONE, settles all. God, Grace grace grace!!! =) Your grace is more than sufficient for me.
Well, if You have given the vision, You will then give the provision. Believing for another breakthrough for this time of A & B!!!! Breakthrough.In this A&B, we got to have a vision for giving.
I am believing God for family salvation, finding a great job with great remuneration & promotion, CG to multiply, my baptism! =) SMiles

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The Fajar camp

It was an interesting camp which I had with the Fajarians! Elev8 2008. My team name was called “ZaiGang”. We ‘re zai! Lols. The students were really interesting. On the first day we went to the Hort Park, in search of the Henderson waves bridge and the metal bridge. Man, this was really my first time going up the metal bridge. The look down from the bridge through the grilling really freaked me out, it was really HIGH. Really enjoyed myself. Smiles, the SUN was greaaaat!!

I love the students, of whom we have (let’s see if I can remember all of them) KaiFang, Angie, Qian Yi, Fabian, Qiu Xuan, Xin Ming, Hui Rong, Lee Woon, Sujeet, Swee Wee, Joshua, Jing Hong & lastly Bo Guang. We took many pictures on the bridge, we are singing “I’m Yours” all the way.

Well, the wrong route that made us walked 1.7 km the bridge is really a test of our stamina. Ms Lim was fantastic. I looked at the way she sacrificed her lunch for the children really convicted me to love people more man.

Prior the bridge we were at the foot of the hill doing our jigsaw puzzle (it was gross!) so long, it took us 40 min. I have concluded that I am just not talented with Jigsaw. Jiejie can do it much better.

Poor Qian Yi was bitten by an insect I believed during that time. His hand swelled like dinosaur (what an apt description!)

When we headed back the Labrador campsite, all of us were tired to the max. I had fun. Enjoyed myself. Now tasked to come up with the 5 min campfire item, this was something I really hated in my history of being a camp facilitator. The rest who were dead, half-dead, were not really keen on this! Tell the truth I was quite irritated, I wanted to “disciple” them, thank God He taught me to encourage and to love.

That was something I learnt. I learnt to encourage and to love. That was what happened during debrief. On the faithful 2nd day of the camp, we were all excited to head to the Safra swimming pool, we had exciting pool games thanks to Vic, Shalynn, Eden and Alvin for their awesome planning. But that was where I lost my beloved N80!! My elephant was lost!! :’( Sobs.
The thief switched off my phone, and there goes my elephant. Terminated the line.
(Buddy thanks for your phone and your sacrifice. Really appreciate you to bitssss!! =) Thanks for even offering to travel down just to pass me your phone.)
On the friday night, Jess came. I was really happy to see her here man. Really.. Smiles. She is my soul support. Lols. Of course not forgeting Jing, Pris and Kee wei.
Kee wei was really HIGH man. He started to play te guitar and singing self-composed songs with FOOD names??!! He is mad. We had fun.. Joke of the day: Kee wei woke up in the morning, was about to brush his teeth and realized that the thing he held in his hand wasn't a toothbrush but a HIGHLIGHTER! Wahahaha =p

We broke camp on Sat morning! Greaat Camp!! Just wanna thank God for lovely people like Fang & Angie. Without them, it wouldn't have been as fun. Thank you ANgie for lending me your toilet before going for service. Thank God =) SMiles..

At work

Guess where I am now..

I am in the Singtel HR department Unit office.. Now is lunch time.

The past 2 days morning prayer were simply awesome. I just felt so recharged, renewed for breakthrough!!!

My rollerblading day!!!!

Tdy went out with Lilian Dearie. Thank you for such a great day =) I enjoyed today. Blading is fun!! Thank God that my blading improved, haha I didnt fall badly with the help of a great Teacher, JiaEn. Thanks Kangwei for accompanying me the whole day in getting all the cheerleading materials. I had a great trip looking at the guitars as well. If I could, I will own a Taylor of my own man.
What a great Word shared during BS today.Thank you God. This is the best part of the day. The Word...I get to see far because I am standing on other giants in my life, that is, my leaders like Zhen & Lun. REally appreciate them alot if not I would not have been where I am today. I love Kim Hock man.. And of course I love God. such an awesome God. I shall share the Word another day.

Nice nice nice

The power of confession, thoughts and vision

An amzing research by Dr Masaru Emoto showed that our thoughts, visions, emotions and our speech can transcend certain energy to the water molecules such that crystals began to form even in distilled water.

A revelational word shared during service that blew all our minds away. That makes me wonder, what have I been thinking all these while. If the thoughts that were running around were without vision, negative then my world will really be aimless and pessismistic.
I shall put an end of the junk thoughts, negative and emotional thoughts, off you go! And SHUTUP stop appearing in my mind. It shall be replaced with the Word of God.
I was looking at Psalm 23 today.
Surely goodness & mercy shall follow me ALL the days of my life.

Talking about the power of confession.. Years ago, I remembered a prayer that I have made. I told God that I want to someone who can usher in the presence of God. I really wanted to minister to His people. Back then, I wasn't a guitarist, not even close to that since I can't play the guitar that well.. The normal G, Em, C, D would be something I always play, even right now. I think about what I told God that day. I want to be a guitarist. I told zhen I will be the best guitarist.. (LOL) Oh well, given 2 powerful guitarists in my CG-Yuli & Stan, my dream will still be a dream, looks like its impossible. So 2 weeks ago, I received a call from Jing. She needed a guitarist. Well, she could have just called Yuli or Stan, they are much better than me in terms of everything. I didn't have faith initially. But yet I thank God I took the step of faith. It was a good CG. Thank God for an opportunity like this. Just as I thought everything would end here, the next week Jessica called. She needed a guitarist on Sat after svc. I was pleasantly surprised yet not afraid althought there are going to be around 40 people attending the CG. So I took a step of faith to play the guitar. I felt the presence of God. I played a little bit better than Jing's CG. I was concentrating on all the barred chords. Jess asked me how was it, because she sensed the presence of God was very strong. If not for His grace... Thank you Lord.



Thank you Fen, Rick, Lilian, Zhen for your constant intercession in the area of Job Search! I really appreciate you guys alot alot. Fen, I love you, thanks for ur constant prayer and forwarding of resume. Man, what a friend I've found. ahhah Rick, thank you for your prayer when you are in US. Prayers from US, super touched. *awww* Lilian, not forgetting u, my faithful friend. hahah Of course Zhenn, you are the best. Holy Spirit is my advocate, I am not afraid.

A Shot to Fame!

Had an interesting days with the interesting Eunos Gang-(Zhi Wen, Ricky, Seng, Willy, Yi Zhong, Shermin, Jia Jia, Guan Huat, Guo Liang,Guo Jing, Tracy, Huang Wen, Si Hui, Hui Si, Miku, Ken, Pei Ying, Terry)! Its really great knowing them! =) Tired and long day! Ricky woke me up at 7am when I barely fulfilled my 4hr of sleep. I had an interesting altar call experience and church service experience. Thank God for an amazing breakthrough! Integration Time, believing for a breakthrough. P.U.S.H!!!!

ANd I Finally had my photos taken with Cassie dearie. She is such a sweet gal =) Thanks dearie, forever so encouraging!!

Shot2Fame was more like something I wanted to get over and done with my singing rather than really singing for it because I really don't like being on stage. No doubt there is the love for singing, but I don't really like the idea of being watched by so many pairs of eyes.. heheh.. For Your sake, I am willing. hahaha. Received rather positive comments like " You've got a nice and strong voice, I like your voice ',without much hope of getting in.

I was so tired at 730pm that I barely have the energy to go down to JW to watch dearest Stany and the awesome the FOCUS! =) But I am so proud of them! They are simply amazing.. =) Thank God for Zhenn.. so thankful that she came down to RW just to watch us perform.. more than that her presence makes me feel encouraged because there were so many NFs. =p LaoDa rocks. =)

Joy redefined.

Painting my room soon.. thinking of putting this up on the ceiling.. hahha just a wild idea, Dad won't allow it.. Anybody volunteer to help in the painting? Help needed!!

Was Lying on the floor, staying at the ceiling. This random thought can to me...

What are the things that will make me happy? Something that makes me smile at the thought of it...

1. When people who are younger loving God much more than me
2. Seeing my Grandma and my family saved
3. I can get baptized this year. New name: Ashley
4. Find a job which I really love, in a coy w/o politics
5. Inspire the younger generation
6. The NFs become radical believers for Christ.
7. My gd friend to grow strong in faith, rise up to be a MM
8. Lead worship & bring people into an encounter with God
9. Become a sophisticated, well-read, wise, sharp woman
10. Able to go to Greece, UK, US...travel with Besties!!

Welcome Beng!!

4th time in Air Port.. My weekly consecutive trip to the airport. This time round its to welcome Beng back, MISS HIM TO BITS!!! And finally HE IS BACK!! We waited for an hr bcoz his flight delayed, haiz, shld have just drove there.. hahhaa. The moment he saw us he was so excited that he parked his trolley right in the middle of the exit, leaving it unattended.. funny boy.. we clapped clamorously to embarrass him.. oh well..Beng we misssss u!!

Ling and her financial testimony!! New phone.. our prayers answered!

On our way to the airport... ahahha thats us, in the most gone state..

Random: Hahah Anyway I found this at Eunos... looks like Da Er Long.. erms.. Need Cash?

oh well, today SOXAL called to say that there was an internal transfer of staff, so they no longer need me =) Smiles, everything is going to be alright. I've got Jesus with me.. Nvm, I will have better ones coming... Jehovah Jireh..

A LONG post!!

Cute right?? Guess what they are doing? YUp Sun-Tanning at the Rivera!!!!

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!!!
Fri-I was able to help out in Children Church (CCH)! Such a priviledge to help out in church!! I really missed those times when I could bring the kids to church and worship together with them. But this time around I was doing Operations-calling up the bus companies and the bus teachers. It was really an honor to be able to work together with Wendy in calling and be able to serve together with her. I love her man, she is just so Zhai. She taught me something, to keep on asking the question "How can we better improve this?" Well, I guess I have to be more and more detailed in the future. Such things I guess are meant to be caught, not to be learnt.
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Sat-Late for CCH. The dismissal at Expo was much faster! Shengmin came to our church!! =)

THANKS PAM, SHAN SAREN!! I love the Bouquet of Lilies!!! HAhahaha to think that you guys actually remembered me saying that I like lilies in one of the conference calls.. Very touched. Thank you for the financial blessings as well.. More than blessed to have you guys around. Missing you guys alot alot.. Know that all of you are still in my prayer list oh!! Love ya sisters... Hugss
Went to Chai Chai's Birthday!! HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY CHAIYING!! ahahha funny to the max. Jing, thanks alot for being such a great friend and company.. lols
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Mon-Went swimming with Jing in the afternoon in a male-dominated pool. That's pretty intimidating especially when we are the least dressed (swim suits).. Hahaha. Eyes were on us.. erms.. Anyway the two of us just never really swam. Guess I am just not a born swimmer, hahaha.. I CANT SWIM FOR NUTS!! =x
PS:Btw thank you Yong Siang for helping me collecting the Testimonial.

I went for visitation with Wendy & Joyce! It was a great time saturating the Yew Tee area. It was so long ago when I last did my visitation with CCH. Miss the smell of the children.. hahaha. I really like what I was doing, inviting the kids, talking to them.. Miss the uniforms that they are wearing, hahahah, I used to be wearing them like... erms.. a good 11years ago???!!!!


Receive a Summon Letter for parking in the "NO PARKING ZONE" in Changi Airport T1 (praying hard) Thank you Buddy for helping me with this; and alex for the story in the letter.
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Tue-Meet up with the NTU pals after tuition!! (Not supposed to let someone see this blog post, if not all of us will be dead meat. hahah. Months since we last meet up with the rest! Miss Christine!! She is clearing her 20K alr!!!! I am amazed by her stamina, all the best for stand chart dearie!! I hope I can clear 10k by then..
Tong is getting married! He got his house alr!! Congrats tong.. So does Alv, he got his wedding package alr.wow hahaha Congrats!!

Lilian's food: Soft Shell Crab Ramen (I dun like) Raitings:2 Stars

My food: Teriyaki Chicken Omelete Rice Ratings: 2.5stars

Dessert: Mocha Icecream with Red Beans!! Ratings:5stars
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Wed-Last day of BiG Day in CCH! Served the ops again =) Such joy!! Si Ling, Becca, Lay Cheng, Jiang were there too.. hahaha Ling really had fun with the mascots. She was so exciting when she saw them. Sorry I wasn't able to talk to you hahha bcoz I don't really know how to multi-task! I love CCH!! Itchy all over.. hahaha...Had a great lunch with Ling, Jiang, Bel, Becca, Lay Cheng.

Had KTV with my BIG family near my house at the RC! Hahaha!! Thanks Terence for ur constant help in my job search, super appreciate you!! =) Love u loadsie!
Stayed for a while and went to send Carter off to Japan with Davin & Geri! Had a great talk with Pamela, just so blessed by her revelation!! Thx Pamie, Love you!!
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Thurs-Writting the Blog code for CG. Writting appeal letter to waive the Summon from Tuition with Keith. I think I can't really teach Chinese, so Keith I am really praying hard for you that you will do well in Chinese..hahah.. I have fought a good fight, I have kept my faith & I have finished the race!! =p

Went to hougang at night to Lilian's house! Miss Aunty. She is just so interesting. Lilian, thank you for always being so strong, for always being there for me even though things may not seem a least bit positive at home some times. I was just shaken to senses that I need to be less selfish, stop pity-partying and start to care for others. The trip to her house make me renewed the love for what I am called to do. Let not the cares of this world weigh me down.. =) I love this shot. huggies Deariee!! Muacks.

Fri-Resume writting and sending to Mr Giles! Thx Alex for the help..Jogging around neighborhood. Ashley & Hui Mei came to my house!! Met Andre too.. Lols, he had fun with hammies.
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Sat-CG & SVC! 4th time serving as in Counselor ministry, much to learn. Be sharp..sharper, Sze!!! Tong says I need a sharpener.. Had a great Dinner with family at CCK garden! Nice food.. smiles. Good food satisfies the soul a little... =)
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Sun-Went for A Shot to Fame vocal training in the afternoon with Carrisa. Ricky you must join us! It's super fun!! =)
And went for the career fair in Suntec. There weren't much positions available other than Emerson.

Prata at Bugis Food Junction Ratings:3stars

I guess I have made the right decision meeting up with Caleb. He never fails to bring me out of confusion and despair man.. No wonder he is my brother. Lols. I had a very insightful talk with him. Thank God for Caleb, really. He is such a blessing.. Well upon my several requests, he still refuse to be my "Dad"!! He will always provide for me, insisiting on paying for me all the time. Well, here is where I learned to bless others.. He was sharing with me how he was impacted by his friend Samuel, a marketplace person, how he was changed by him in a way not to be legalistic, how to be freed up in the mind. I too, am determined to be more freed up, liberal.. =)
Thanks Caleb. Once again, for being here for me as a brother.. =) I appreciate you loadss!!

Smiles.. Samuel came to pick us up just to send his best friend home.. LOLS.He is really fun loving and a very sociable guy. Just such joy to meet up with this friends.

Haahah well, he says he is good looking.. hao ba.. yes good looking, *double nods*